Post Christmas Blues

Its strange how the Christmas season can stress a person out so much...then poof its gone. I worry every year that I wont have enough for the children so much that I sit up on Christmas eve night and cook and count presents. I try to make sure they all get the same. Then you worry over the food and the decorations. Its worth it all when you see their faces light up on Christmas morning. I dont want my children to think of nothing but the gifts and I think this year God has really been dealing with me about how we celebrate our holidays. I had such great memories of holiday celebrations as a child and I want these kids to have those same precious memories and if it means I get no rest at all on Christmas eve night then so be it. But as I say every year ....NEXT YEAR I AM GOING TO HAVE A BETTER GAME PLAN.
Anyway......R came back from his overnight visit and he seemed like he enjoyed himself well enough. He will have another visit coming up on the weekend. They seemed like a lovely family and I sure they were good to him. It must be so hard on the kids however....I can see a lot of irritation in R since he got back and a lot of it has been directed at me.
N and J will have a visit with their mom on Monday. They are refusing to go and are probably going to have to have some push from me to get them there. They have been with me for a while...almost 4 years. N gets very nervous when he hears his mom mentioned. I wish he didnt feel that way about her. I have tried very hard to tell him we can love someone without loving the things they do. He has a lot of bad memories to work through but with the grace of God I know hes going to be ok.
So with all the hustle and bustle of the Christmas festivities it seems a little boring around here already....post Christmas blues maybe? I even heard one of the kids ask how many more days until we go back to school!