Mothers Day

Today was probably one of the most special days of my life. If you have never had fertility issues you wont understand where I am coming from with this. All my life I dreamed of the day that I would get married and have 10 or 12 children of my own....and I literally meant that. I love kids. You cant put too many children around me. Mothers day is sunday of course and its usually a difficult day for me. I generally spend the day by honoring my mother with a small gift, take a flower or something to my grandmother and thats about the extent of it. I always hated going to church on mothers day and having so much said about mothers and I was generally the only female in the whole congregation who had never given birth. As much as I have accepted the fact that I couldnt bear a child there are some days that it is a little harder to deal with than others. I am a foster mom now and I can say with all my heart that the children who live in my home mean as much to me as if I had given birth to each of them and although some of them are only with me for a season....they are my heart and I love them each and everyone. Most people would say well your a mother since you have foster children and although I do all the mothering things for my kids I hesitate to make too much over mothers day because I dont want to make my children feel saddened for the fact that their own mothers are absent on this day....because in fact no matter what the circumstance is that landed them in foster care they still love the woman who gave birth to them...its natural and I honor that bond and show respect to it. I make it a point to never say anything negative about their mothers no matter how hard it can be at times. Today was a special day to me however. My little girl was getting off the school bus and I was standing in the middle of the yard waiting for her to run into my arms like she always does...its a little game we play each day when she gets off the bus. She was so excited to get home today that she came running up to me and instead of the usual leap into my arms she stopped and she was just smiling and giggling and you could just tell she was bursting with excitement. She couldnt get her bookbag open fast enough to pull out the Mothers day present she had made for me at school today. In the middle of her little handicraft was a picture of herself. She handed it to me and said the most beautiful words I have ever heard.....HERE MOMMY I MADE THIS FOR YOU FOR MOTHERS DAY AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I felt like I was holding the winning lottery ticket. It wasnt what she handed to me that was so special...but the excitement that was in her face when she handed it to me. I will never forget that moment because when she did that I felt more like a mother than I would have if I had given birth to 10 children. So this year will be different. I will talk to the children about their mothers like I always do....remind them to pray for their families and no matter their circumstance to show honor and respect but I will also celebrate Mothers Day this year too.