Wrinkle in the Road

Its been a mess around here lately. Ever since R has come to the realization that social services in making plans to move him to an adoptive home hes began to act up. I feel like I am handing out punishments all the time this week. Then to make matters worse he got kicked off the school bus. He deserved it. So I have been making him do chores to earn money for gas to take him to and from school. Then while all that was going on N decided to have a tantrum. He is a lazy student and he doesnt like to be corrected for anything. It comes from his old way of thinking that he is an adult. He was pretty mad at me for fussing at him for his poor grade. It was probably the maddest he has ever gotten with me. I didnt yell or anything at him I just didnt say anything really. I decided to let it go and let him sink or swim with that grade with just the reminder that if the grade is poor he will go to summer school. So thats been out week for the most part. Handing out punishments for bad behavior. I shouldnt feel badly but I do. I love them and like seeing them happy and I like being the one that makes them happy. But I want them to grow up being happy productive self sufficient adults there will be some bumps in the road. And that is what they are really...bumps. Later on when I was washing dishes N came up to me and kissed my cheek and said Im sorry for being mean. They are my boys and I love them.