Middle School Mom

So I guess I am an official Middle School mom. Today N left for spring break camp for 2 days. I have always had a good close relationship to N. When we got to the bus and he was about to board it for camp I could tell he didnt want to kiss me in front of all his cool middle school friends. I guess I could have been one of those cool moms and let him shake my hand and go but instead I decided what the heck...I grabbed him and gave him a huge hug and kiss and told him I loved him with all my heart and to call me if he needed me immediately and I would race to his side. I could tell he blushed. But its all good. I knew he would eventually reach that ripe ole age of preteen when he would be embarassed by me....I know he loves me. And although he might have blushed with a little embarassment in front of his cool friends in his heart he knows I love him and would walk through the fire for him. So thats why I am sitting up so late....One of little ones is out of the nest and I am wondering what he is doing tonite. I know he is safe at camp....after all its sponsored by the Police and Sheriffs department.
R found out that the adoption party he was having to go to was cancelled. He was elated. His adoption case worker stopped by to see him and to help him begin the process of building a book about himself that would later be used as tool for potential adoptive parents. R is not fond of social workers and he tried with all that was within himself to express his feelings to her today. He is such a confused little boy. We have decided to leave it in Gods hands knowing that whatever is in his will for R will be the best. Time will tell.
So I guess I will go try to lay down again. Tomorrow is soccer game day.
Nite nite