Grandma

Today Rob, the kids and I went to visit my Grandma. She is 98 years old now and although shes maintained excellent health for the majority of her life which I think has lulled us into a false sense of believing she would be here forever. Recently shes taking a downward spiral in her health and to be pretty honest....Im scared. I cant imagine her not being here. I was named after her....Mary. She has been a part of every important event in my life. And shes been there to share the good, the bad, and the ugly. I can recall during the times in my life when I failed miserably at something grandma was always there...never lecturing....always making things right for me. Grandma has always had a solution for my problems and when she didnt have one I could always count on her to pray until a solution came. I know I am being selfish...I dont want her to lay on her bed and suffer. But I am just so not ready to let her go. I dont thing I will ever be ready for that. She has been the glue thats held our family together for so many years. If it was not for my grandmother I can say I would probably not being in church now....she took me to church and the biggest contribution she has made to my life is that she has lived a model of a Christian life in front of me. Grandma trained me to love God, honor his word, obey his commandments without ever telling me to do anything. She modeled it in front of me everyday. The first time I ever heard that I needed salvation was from my grandmother. If she leaves me soon then heaven will get another piece of my heart but Grandma will leave behind such a legacy that I can only hope to leave. Because of the christian example I saw from my grandma it is my hearts desire to make sure that all of my children first hear about Christ from me....when they get old enough I want to be the first one to tell them they need to accept Christ and to live for him daily. And I want to model a Christian life in front of them....and it would be my hope and prayer that someday they would be able to say about me....Momma showed us how to be a Christian ...by being one herself.